I'd love to say all these things.
The truth is....
We are in the WEEDS!!!!
If you ever have been a waiter or waitress you probably know what I'm talking about.
For those of you that have never heard the saying "I'm in the weeds", let me explain...
Being in the weeds is when you can't think past the moment you are in. If you do think past the moment, all the stuff that lies ahead causes your brain to spin out of control and you can't make any sense out of it. It is when you feel an extraordinary amount of stress to keep up. And even more stress KNOWING that you are NOT keeping up. When you disappoint people that are counting on you. When you barely get to the things you HAVE to get done, never mind the things you want to do... like send a get well card, or a cook a friend a dinner.
There are moments when you are in the weeds, when you really, really, really want to just run out the front door and leave the weeds behind.
Being in the weeds isn't a whole heck of a lot of fun.
But, lately it's where we are. Actually, maybe it is where I am. Luckily, Steve handles the weeds better than me. Always has.
If you could SEE my kitchen right now. If you could have heard me SCREAM at the top of my lungs (to the point of my throat hurting) "ENOUGH!!!!!!" when my kids were bickering this morning.
These are things I am not proud of. But, I feel like I should share... life isn't all roses. It never is. For anyone.
Then we have this whole other thing that causes our weeds to be a bit thicker. Balancing work and life. HA!
I'd love to meet someone that does this balance well. Actually, I think I have but it's certainly not me. I fail at it often. It seems the scales are constantly tipping from one side to the other.
When the kids are sick for several days in a row. Life wins.
And then there are times when I become a bit obsessed with a project at work, or the emails that come through my phone. Work wins.
And this too causes stress. And more of a feeling of living life in the weeds.
I guess I don't have much of a moral to this story except to make sure I keep it real with my friends in bloggy world that I SO don't have it all together.
I'll even share a little secret.... sshhhh.... you don't have to have it all together to adopt a child!!!!!! Nope... not even a prerequisite. The social worker when doing your homestudy does NOT ask how clean you bathroom is! Crazy huh?!
But, although I fully admit there are times when I would LIKE to run out the front door and away from the weeds.
Some may say "well, your crazy life... you kind of brought this all on yourself".
Four kids. Yup. We did.
But even when I'm living life in the weeds instead of a rose garden.
I wouldn't change a single thing.