I'm just not sure what is wrong with me these last few days.
I can't seem to hold it together.
Every little thing is making me cry.
Like the letter sent home from Kailey's Kingergarten teacher to parents' yesterday. Had me weeping in the parking lot as I read it.
or the bus pulling away this morning carrying my 9 year old to his last day of 3rd grade.
or my little four year, carrying his -too big for him- backpack to school on his last day of school.
or watching my littlest shovel a sandwich into her mouth at lunch, eating a banana with a fork, and drinking her milk all by herself from a regular cup.
maybe it's because I see my kids growing faster than I ever thought possible. I know everyone says it. but they do really grow up WAY too fast.
another school year passes. sigh.
maybe, just maybe, my weepiness has to do with the fact TODAY is the end of my time at home with Grace.
After four months of being home... Monday, I go back to being a working Mom.
I love my work. I really, really do. I miss it. I miss my co-workers. I miss my wonky policy friends. and... I can't believe I'm going to say this... but I miss that building I work in with the gold dome!
BUT, I will miss my girl. Grace has the fast forward button pressed and missing one day is like missing two weeks. Her development is progressing so fast. She came home a baby... she is now an almost two year old.
In four months, I have not left her for more than a couple hours... and I think I only did that once. So, next week... well, it's going to be hard.
and here I am crying again.
So, I leave you today with some pictures.
Another school year complete. We started out as a family of five and ended as a family of six.
Can someone PLEASE tell me to how to get these kids to hit the pause button and STOP growing up!
Every time I hear Grace say "Mama" my heart grows in size. Even if she is saying to everyone.... because she does... say it to everyone. Oh well. I love to hear her say it anyway.
So, when I stood in the kitchen yesterday afternoon and heard her very loudly calling me from the other room... "Mama, Mama, Mama"... as any good mother would... I went in to respond.
and what did I find?
Grace sitting, very proudly, on Braden's bed.
Braden's bed is the TOP BUNK!!!!
I should have known this was coming. The day before she called "Mama, uh oh, Mama uh oh" and I found her standing on the second step of the ladder, stuck.
So, when I found her 6 feet off the floor on the bed, leaning over the railing... my immediate reaction was to tell her NO! and take her down from the top bunk before she fell over the edge and broke her neck.
But, after, I realized that I missed a GREAT picture. DARN!
So, because the title of Mother of the Year was lost to me years ago. I did what any good blogging mother would do.
I told her to climb again, so I could capture the moment on film.
She looked at me like... "but you just told me know NO"?!
... but can you do it just one more time so I can take a picture?
Then... NO! don't do it again.
Yeah, I know. I told you I wouldn't win mother of the year.
So, my brave, strong girl climbed.
Stepped over the edge...
and stood OH SO PROUDLY on the top of the bed.
Her gross motor skills seem to be developing just fine. Wouldn't you say?
I can't believe it has already been six weeks since Grace's palate repair.
I have no idea what it's supposed to look like in there... but it looks GREAT to me! There is a little tiny hole right where the hard palate meets the soft palate... but it doesn't actually look like a hole, more like an indentation. The surgeon thinks that it will close on it's own.
NO MORE BABY FOOD!!!!! YIPEE!!!!!
We started feeding Grace some chunky foods yesterday... still soft, but chunky. She is LOVING it!
Only problem. She refuses to eat herself. She wants to be fed.
She's no dummy. She knows it's easier to be fed. AND she gets MORE attention.
Like the girl doesn't get enough attention! :)
The last couple days she has started to say just a few words... a LOT of repeating sounds. or at least she is trying to repeat sounds. They don't always come out right, but she sure is trying!
We are hoping slowly but surely the words will come. There is NO DOUBT she understands everything we are saying. Which is just amazing considering she has only been hearing English for 3 1/2 months.
In about a month she will see the surgeon again, as well as the speech and language pathologist. She will also have her hearing re-tested to make sure the tubes that were inserted at the time of the palate repair have helped to improve her mild hearing loss.
We are a crazy loud family of six. Steve and I have been blessed with four children, three the old fashion way and one through the miracle of adoption. We blog to tell our story. Here we share with you the laughter, tears, joy and chaos that is our home.
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